Help general thoughts?

Summarsing---to b in context ive had n awful 2 trs like literally been 2 hell n bk but im getting on track still struggel but im trying n getting there------ive been with this guy 4 mnths i recently felt mre n mre 4 him---som stuuf was on my mind i talked to him n we sorted it out hwver it led onto how we felt he said nothing basically or it was there n went i obv told him i felt loads n he said he wud maybe mre down line he might i said i cant wait for to make yr mind up based on current feeling of nothing atm----he in army struggels with it somtimes i think n obv there distance btwn us-------anyway pretty much immediatly after he said he made a mistake to ppl etc we met after a week n talked we bk together but i said im still hurt obv he didnt do anything wrong honest at time but th way ge said it n wen was awful i said itll take me time to trust that i wont be hurt like that again----but i feel torn i feel soo much bu he nt where i am n hav i done th right thing i mean evry1 said it the risk u tke etc but its playing on my minfd i havnt rushed bk into it n im nw gonna let him lead etc :/ nt gt lot exp just want general thoughts on situation pls????? thnku xxx